My end game

Is this the end? - my end game it was, it is, it were

Tonight, I write the saddest lines of this moment

This 24th day of this year you're 18 in this Leo lucent

Where every scar burns deeper,

where every hurt lingers longer

As it was what you think 

my end game? - 

you're braver

and I am distinct much sadder 

"It was tragic my end game, it was painful - deeply gradually killing me from the inside,

sometimes the pain burns, sometimes it's pinning like a needle, most of the time I can feel death my end game, please hear me, hold my hand even holding like touching the careness of my skin and while I look to your glimmering eyes I will cry as if my last tears dropping to this bleeding eyes."

I wish I could turned back time,

I wish we're strangers and meeting again for the first time

I am loving you from distance

Waiting, dreaming for a moment where I could say to you.,

"to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, til death do us part, and the life after death, I will always love you never forget"